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Bittersweet, like the taste of Yu-shen with a little too much lime.

On one hand, i am grateful for all the good things. A loving family. A great reunion dinner.
We had BBQ instead of the traditional steamboat.
My liver might be dying anytime soon; so much meat and wine.

One whole week and then its back to studies.

sian.


On the other hand, sometimes we need to make harsh decisions. And i've made one.
Acceptance can only go so far until it becomes blinded.

Acceptance has to be mutual. Friendship has to be mutual.

Friends arent some outlet of convenience; have time then make friends, no time then throw away.

But with spring cleaning, comes the dumping of old trash.
You just have to let the trash go.

I'm gonna let you go now. Even my Guinea pig has more loyalty than that, than you. she doesnt toss me aside when the going gets tough, she keeps no secrets, she waits for me and appreciates me. I get nothing like that from you.

You have one last chance before i drop you. and by golly i;m gonna drop from a high place...

Edge of giving up

Sometimes i wonder why i even bother.

It is true that if i were to not speak, no one would speak to me.

The worse part comes when no one even makes an effort to understand me. Do you know how mind numbing it is to lower myself to understanding you? I try my dest to understand you and never get the same in return!

All you do is make demands of me, yet i never make a single demand of you.

I can only sit there and take so much.

Everything you ask, i do.
All i ask is that you try to understand me, not change me.

ALL I ASK, after trying all my life to understand you all, is for someone else to try to understand me. JUST TRY!! Show that minuscule illusion of interest for frag's sake!

Cos sooner than later, i would stop trying to understand you too.