I was reminded this week of something i tried to forget.
I keep trying to believe that humans all have the capacity to do good. We are all children of god hence born good.
For a time, i forgot about Humanity's capacity for bad, for evil. For a time, i unwillingly chose sunflowers and rainbows and forgot about the stinking crap that fertilized the flowers or the acid rain that made the rainbows.
I should never forget.
I should never forget my own integrity even though i see others throw theirs out he window.
They lie, they steal, THEY CHEAT!!!
And i thought being fellow Christians they were beyond such things, above such things. All for the marks, that silly number on the test paper, they sell out their integrity and cheat.
I was greatly disappointed having held such ppl in high regard once, only to be let down. Is it wrong to expect the best out of people? Should i got back to expecting everyone to be a total turd until proven otherwise?
Cos the latter would be so much easier. That way, i wont ever be disappointed in people, wont ever be let down and hurt like i've been.
If people cannot even have that basic integrity, what more? I never expect from friends what i cannot deliver myself so is it wrong to expect something so fundamental in a person's life? Is it wrong to expect integrity?
How much lower can they sink!!!!
How much more until my trust in them and my faith in humanity's goodness is totally shattered...............
