still alive

Has there ever been anyone who has ever felt bad about getting full marks in an exam before?
I do.

I am that person.
I've always lived with the feeling that it is better to die trying.

But this time, i'm apparently still alive.

kinda like "survivor's guilt". Although this time its not that i feel bad that i am the only one who got full marks for exam. I feel bad that so many other people got A.

That means the exam was too easy. It was not a fair objective gauge of my abilities. If i was any more extremist i would gladly get a B if it meant that everyone else get a C or D.



After days of trying to self-justify my grade to myself, i am now stuck in a new semester.

2 projects instead of 1.
Same old friends who can't seem to move beyond friendship.
Superficial, superfluous, but highly satisfactory nonetheless. so no complains.


I feel like dying but im still alive

still alive

still alive.