Dont follow strangers

Dont follow strangers for they will lead you astray
Dont talk to strangers, for they will try to trick you
Dont believe strangers, for they are filled with lies.


I am cynical yes.

Are there no fellow cynics?

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i didnt post here in a long time.

Thats cos i thought people listened to me. Illusion i guess. So i'm back here.

The only thing that does listen to me.


I am tired of being happy.
My facial muscles are tired of having to pull my mouth into a smile, of having to entertain people with senseless conversation.

Why do you feel bored?
Is there a NEED for something to be constantly exciting?
is there a NEED for something to always be fun?


I made a list of things that make me happy.

It is a very short list. It can never see the light of day.
It can never be published.

What are the things, then, that make me unhappy?
75 and counting


Sometimes...........maybe i truly am crazy.

All that i have learnt, it is all starting to mean less and less

soon it would disappear completely.

Love.......................its supposed to be good.
Why then do i feel happy only with hate?

I've had it

Sometimes, in my deepest darkest recesses of my mind, i regret being born a beliver of God.

that makes suicide a sin.
that makes mass murder a sin
And i will go to hell.

dammit

Sometimes i hate choices

Choices to be made. Decisions decisions.

Com300
Advantages:
- its writing. I love writing
- lots of in-class discussion
- small class size
- little studying involved. Skills based.

Disadvantages
- work intensive


Com 460
Advantages:
- lenient teacher
- easy to score
- concept based
- small class size

Disadvantages
- boring as hell
- standard lecture structure
- teacher's thick accent
-2x textbooks.



Oh. Dear. Gosh.

Someone kill me.

Heroic Age

a new era dawns for me.

I am at peace


Holding a part time job and studying........HA now i feel like a true uni student.

Social life's never been better, work life has never been better.

Wish study life was better but that'll have to wait for the results to be determined.

I LOVE LIFE!!! (and a 30% staff discount. hoho)

Of what nature, miracles?

Divine acts of God? Unforseen favorable consequences of some past action by you or others? Or perhaps just self fulfiling wishes?

Do we make our own miracles happen or are miracles part of the divine plan?

Exhibit A: Miracles are a gift from God.
- now it begs the question of "why". OF course the simplest and truest answer is that God is a loving God who gives us blessings. Then there is the rebuttal that not everyone recieves blessings; there is poverty, murder, death and disesase running rampant still in the world.

Exhibit B: Miracles are the unexpected favorable result of our own or others' actions
- aka free will argument guided by determinism. We make our own miracles happen but those events seem "miraculous" when they are highly unexpected. Someone coming to your aid in a time of need might see "miraculous" until you figure out its cos at some point in your life you might have touched the heart of that someone. Or a miracle cancer cure. It is almost magical until you discover that cells can "bounce back" from cancer and that despite the treatment being only 10% effective, you luckily got into that 10% who were cured. Hence the "miracle cure" was the result of all these factors; the treatment, the family and friend support etc etc.
The determinism part comes in when you consider how a bird crapping on the sidewalk can end up with you getting a million dollars. One event leads to the next, determinism determines that the outcome would have always been that outcome.


For me, its all about choice.

How do we choose to see miracles and whether we choose miracles or not.
For exhibit A, All God ever does it present miracles to us. We have to choose to accept them. And choosing is not as easy as just saying yes. The mouth can say yes, but if the spirit and heart do not truly believe, then we have officially chosen to say no to whatever miracles.

For exhibit B, there is also choice. We can choose to see any event as a miracle. A baby's birth can be a miracle, a haircut can be a miracle. How we choose to see it is how it is.

fruits are sweet

Most fruitful vacation i ever had in a long time

1) Got much practice with job interviews (went for 8 total)

2) Got a part time job that works well with my schedule (and its $6.50 an hour. EAT THAT Macdonalds!)

3) FINALLY booked a holyday that is
- goes outside of ASEAN
- without my parents
JAPAN!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa

4) rediscoverd a certain style of drawing and learned some basics in panel sequential art

5) re-affirmed faith in religion and my future

6) got my movie reviewing mojo back

7) got the drawing mojo back


Well 7 is a good number.

As a result, i am happier.